Sunday, September 13, 2015

such a tease

I needed a little extra motivation for my run this morning. I was still laying in bed & I realized I have not written down a single race this year and/or compared my times. How many races have I even done in the last few months???

Oh GAWD...What kind of "runner" am I???

my happiest place
I remember celebrating my tenth half marathon but other than that I have just been running when I can and racing hard when it feels right. 

St. Patty's Day

After thinking about it awhile I opened up 5 million windows to try and find my race results and after all that work the little post-it full of my accomplishments just wasn't going to cut it...

I subconsciously knew that I was going to have to add my runs to this special place. This place I abandoned almost a full year ago! So I recovered my password because god help me if I can ever remember a password to save my life and I tried to figure out how to even edit the race tab.
RUSTY is an understatement.
BUT long story short, my recent races are added.
Now I can resume to being a real "runner" again or whatever that means :)

Last year I kept coming and leaving...blaming everything on changes and not really making writing a priority. I didn't ever want to be that blogger and I felt dumb. Its annoying to read. I may not be a great blogger but I am a pretty great blog reader and I know what I like to read and it sure isn't apology posts about disappearing and deciding to enjoy your life instead of typing about it.

Well maybe its time to come back...A whole year changes you and I would be a different person now but that is usually a good thing. 

SO I will leave you in suspense. Maybe...I am back :)

Friday, October 10, 2014

I am a big fat liar

just don't know what is going on with me. I really do want to come here and let you all know every boring detail of my life ... Talk through my goofy problems ... Share too many pictures and find my rythym again but something is just not clicking. 

It is obvious I lied a few weeks ago when I said I was back in action but it's no secret that I haven't even tried to sit down and write a sentence since than which is silly because we definetly have been busy doing some of my favorite things so I'll give you a quick life update. 

Two weeks ago we spent time up in Door County Wisconsin. It was the best weekend we have had in awhile. The weather was perfect ... The colors were just starting to pop and I had a great ten mile run. I completely undid the hard work by gorging myself with all things pumpkin and yummy but it was worth it. 






Speaking of... I have felt some guilt over a few extra LBS lately and I'm just so sick of feeling that way. I take good care of myself 99 percent of the time but then I really wreck myself on the weekend. It's a really bad cycle that I think most people can relate to. I just want to enjoy myself and find balance so I have been trying to celebrate where I win and notice when I have taken it too far... 


I have also really been trying to let myself have what I want without eating every last morcel and that seems to have kept the binging "I love life" monster at bay for a few weeks now. I really love bethenny frankel's book "naturally thin" and when I need a reality check that's where I go to reread some great advice. I don't really know if I would proclaim to the world that's she is the perfect role model but that book is gold in my opinion. 

This seems like an unnecessary tangent but I guess since we have been so busy filling up our beautiful fall weekends with fun, it's hard to keep my skinny jeans from getting too tight. 

Thank god I run.

&&& thank god the two boys I love most like to now too! Last weekend for my dad's birthday we (the husband and I) bought him a race entry to a fall 5k in a beautiful arboretum by our house in Illinois. My parents came down from Wisconsin and it was great. It was the first 5k I think I actually liked and the thought of doing more has crossed my mind. 

I can't even believe I just typed that. 


For you non runners... I am a distance loving runner... At least for the last few years I have been. 5ks are usually too fast and painful for those of us who need 5 miles before we feel like we love running. But somehow I kinda liked the pain this time around and trying to accomplish some speed goals seemed like a welcomed challenge. I ended 6th in my age group out of a little over 100 which made me pretty happy. Jake and my dad did great too! 



This weekend Jacob and I are camping for the first time ever. For me it's the first time ever in my life! 
We came to an agreement that with all the little trips we like to take on weekends we have still been living on a budget of two adults who work full time... Not two kids who live with their parents and are taking out expensive law school loans...so !!! since most of our getaways are outdoorsy anyways we decided it might be a great hobby if we don't kill each other or even more likely I die from irrational fears and flash backs to the Blair witch project. 

Well I am not sure how much of an update this was but I typed something so I'm pressing publish :) 

Have a great weekend pretty people!! 

Xoxo

Jess



Friday, September 19, 2014

boo! I am back just in time for pumpkins, boots, & spiked cider.

I can't even believe it has been almost two months since I sat down to write a blog post.

Honestly once Jacob joined me here in Illinois (about the last time I wrote) I just wanted to experience the next month or so without any social media. It wasn't a choice I made on purpose but it happened and I would be lying if I said it wasn't actually a really nice break. I have posted a few things on instagram if you follow (if you don't, you should :) so click here!!) and on my personal facebook.

I really thought with how much transition we were going through it would be great to write it all down and share the good, bad, and the ugly but in reality I just wanted to ride it out quietly.


I have felt like a bit of a hermit. I am sure many of even my close friends are wondering what is going on but about an hour ago I made some pumpkin spice oatmeal, sat down with a perfect cup of coffee, felt the cool breeze blow through our windows and listened to my very-sexy-law-student-husband type away in the next room and realized I think we came through on the other side. So I deemed today the day that our "transition period" has commenced and now it is time for my freaking favorite time of year (all things fall) & I offically think it is okay if I start coming back down from wherever I was & start finding my place back in this little world.



So pick up a pumpkin spice latte, with all its bad for you goodness. 
& let me tell you a few things you missed while I was away. 

{One}

Jacob and I celebrated two years of marriage!!! We ended up spending the night out celebrating in the little town I grew up in here in Illinois. They have a very cute downtown and the night really made it seem like life sure does come full circle. Of all the places I have been and lived I find it totally bizarre that Jacob and I spent time walking down my memory lane as a little girl for our anniversary (I hadn't visited the area in yearssss). We even chatted about how we could really picture ourselves there permanently in the future. I am not sure I would have ever thought I would raise my family exactly were I was raised but it sure makes my heart really happy to think about.


But truth be told wherever we call home after this law school experience will be just fine with me as long as I have this guy next to me. I couldn't imagine my life with anyone else.


{Two}

I ran one of my best half marathons to date. It was my SEVENTH &&& here is something absolutely shocking, it was one of my slowest. That nagging hamstring thing I was complaining about all summer just hasn't gone away. I trained enough for the half but I knew going into it there might be a chance I need to stop or walk a lot of the miles but I went into the morning of the race with the best attitude and SHOCKER it changed the whole day for me. I listened to how my body felt and I took some stretch breaks. I didn't miss one single water stop & I just jammed out andddd enjoyed the beautiful day. It was awesome.



The Madison Mini has been voted really high in the country as one of the best races and I am not surprised. Everything about the race was flawless. Except for the beer...the beer was weird...some bitter crap but it basically finishes in a beer garden so there is plenty to buy instead :)

{Three}

Speaking of running I guess I should let y'all know that on November 9th I will no longer be running the full marathon. I think my hamstring issue is really my sciatic nerve and it just absolutely cannot take the training. I went out for a 14 mile run by myself the other weekend and I rocked it, very slowly but I rocked it. However mentally I am just not there because I know I am not 100 percent. It was so hard to press the submit button and switch to the half but I know it is the right thing for my body. There is always next year :) Right??? Anyone else have to switch a race before??? were tears involved? or am I just crazy...

{Four}

I made a completely huge, almost unforgivable blogger mistake. I never celebrated my one year on this little space. It was July 6th & I guess by missing it I have confirmed that I just am not made from the perfect blogger mold. I want to grow this space and learn as much as I can to make it better but at the end of the day it really is just where I come to be honest. I hope that is enough for you to stick around awhile longer :)

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I hope y'all had a beautiful end to your summer. I am sure I missed a few important updates but I promise I will be back on the regular so hang tight :)

XOXO

Jess


Thursday, July 24, 2014

Where in the world am I now?

This week you will find us in Texas visiting familia. It was a super last minute decision but those are just the best trips in my opinion...plus staying with family is amazing. 

First, they break out the good stuff even if your arrival isn't until 11 pm on a Tuesday night. 

They are great people. 


My lips are still smiling from the happiness that came in this bottle. 

Then because normal people work all day, we get to lounge around their house being bums and feeling like real kids on summer vacation until they come home and ...

Take us out for some delicious seafood! 


My heart stopped, sang songs and then continued beating again. You are looking at shrimp wrapped in bacon filled with jalapeƱos cheese. 

Try your hardest not to be jealous. 

On a running note ...

When I get back home I need to get serious about mileage and this marathon in Novemeber. Finally being on a low key vacation I have had more time to read up on my different plans of attack via the interwebs and my dusty (breaks my heart) Runner World magazines that made it through our move. I feel a little panicky and behind :( 

Oand refocusing on a clean diet and hydration might be wise too. 

On a previous post I made some goals for 14 days and my two week mark was on Tuesday. I will talk results soon! 

In the meantime have a great Thursday!! I'm headed out the door to run until sweat burns my eyeballs, so probably only a mile or two... It is Texas after all.

Xo

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Some thoughts with my coffee on a Sunday


This weekend we are back up north in Door County, WI !!!

For those of you who don't know, it's the most beautiful place on the peninsula or the little finger of the state, situated in Lake Michigan. I grew up coming here and when Jacob decided to deal with me for the rest of his life, he proposed here too. Smart guy:) this place has slowly become a part of us as much as it was a part of my family before him and it makes me so happy. 

                            
 
                                     


We have a huge reason to celebrate this weekend because Friday was Jacob's very last day of work. We are officially a one income couple living with his parents... Oh boy! :) 

My heart swells though when I think of what the future holds for him and the smile he gets just talking about it. School (law school) starts up on august 21st so he has just about a month to relax...

But let's be honest ... I will be his obnoxious BFF dragging him to everything I can and soaking him all up. Jacob has never had a job where second or third shift wasn't part of the deal. I wasn't too clear on that before because I didn't want crazy stalker internet people to know that I was home alone a lot but I can count the number of Tuesday night dinners we have had on one hand in four years. 

Every couple has their struggle and I am sure tons of couples deal with this, but his schedule has put the worse strain on us and our relationships with friends. When Saturday night is the only real evening together it is so hard to give it up to others... Its been hard but now it's all over !!!! &&&& I think unlike other couples we are really super prepared for the demands of law school. Pretty much if I get to see him for thirty minutes on a week night that is more than I ever have :) so I'll take it.

Well anyways back to Door County... I am sitting here in our little cottage feeling the cool breeze of the lake and drinking my coffee and feeling completely overwhelmed by how much I actually love just being here. This place ...the roads and trails and even the buildings and structures have not changed in 26 years. Each milestone of my life has been really celebrated here. From my first step, to my first heart break. I drove for the first time on an abandoned road here and ran my first half marathon. I have memories with every single member of my family (the ones still here and the ones in heaven). I said the most important "yes" of my life on my favorite pier three years ago &&&& I can't help but add this milestone into the mix ... Jacob and I starting all over again and pursuing what some people would really categorize as a huge risk. Sharing that leap and celebrating that here has been exactly what we needed ....oh &&& lots of ice cream, cherry pie and wine :) 

I may still be rather young but it's starting to set in not only how fast everything goes but how often we forget to really taste and enjoy our memories. We forget to stop and celebrate our leaps and our failures. I love Door County for all it's beauty but the reason it is so meaningful to me is it holds all those chapters of my life. I am just really happy that even as an adult the new chapters are still being celebrated here too.

I kinda hope everyone has a place like this.

One last thought this morning!

very wise friend posted this on the Facebook the other day & I couldn't help sharing. 

"Two words. Live boldly. Every single time life offers you a choice that involves greater risk, take it. You will lose on many of them, but when you add them up at the end of your life you will be glad you did." 

Go live boldly this week!!! Xoxo

Friday, July 11, 2014

oh! hey Friday!

I am sneaking in one last post this week...

Remember when I said my "new" life would give me more opportunities to blog???
Ya, remember that?
I wish...I just need one more hour in the day but I am probably preaching to the choir so moving on...



I am so excited to try a new link up today!
Karli blogs here & if you blog you still have time to link up so GO :) 

{ONE}

first let me keep my promise and share the sangria recipe I used this past weekend to help achieve my drunken, food coma state.


here is what you need:

one bottle of cheap Merlot 
(NOTE: I am a wine snob but sangria doesn't need good wine--You are mixing in other ingredients that will alter the taste.)

one 1 liter bottle of zero calorie sparkling water 
(I chose an orange flavor. You can get these everywhere now. Try Target or Walmart.)

peach schnapps (6 shots)

two fresh oranges

bag of frozen berries

directions: 

I used a pitcher
& poured the bottle of wine in.
Then I poured six shots of schnapps in.
I dumped a little over half of the liter of water in. 
Pealed, diced, and added the oranges.
Poured a little over half of the bag of frozen berries in. 
I let it sit for an hour in the fridge. 

It was yummmmy !!!

{two}

I have been toying with the idea of getting a fitbit or a jawbone for awhile now...

Today is my half birthday so I decided it was appropriate to snag one 
(FYI it is completely okay that I am a twenty something and celebrate half birthdays. 
I don't care what you think. Actually I do, so don't make fun of me.)

I went with the jawbone and it is currently charging next to me. 
I was basically bouncing as I checked out at best buy. I need to stop being such a nerd. 

I will definitely review it once I spend some time figuring it out.

{three}

This weekend I am determined to achieve one goal. EAT every summer thing I love. 

I  have yet to devour fresh corn on the cob off the grill while sitting outside. I plan to only hydrate with watermelon for the next two days & I fully intend on getting a stomach ache from an obscene amount of s'mores. 


We have just been so busy the last few weeks & I haven't had much control over our whereabouts and  meals so I am really excited to make sure this weekend is the definition of summer cuisine.   

{four}

I am truly sad that Rachel McAdams is not having Ryan's baby. 
that is all.



{five}

I can smell dinner. 
It is stir fry that my brother-in-law is making. 

He just came to tell me it is my half birthday so therefore my celebration dinner. 

Boom!!!

I totally married into the right family. 



Have the best weekend, pretty people :)

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

the WIIB aftermath

If you read my previous post you know this past weekend was our family's annual WIIB fest. It was every bit as crazy as planned. The only downfall is that we found it appropriate to party the hardest on Sunday...you know the day before Monday??? BAD idea. However, if I had to do it all over again I would still make the same BAD choice & I don't think I would be alone.

Here are some of my favorite pictures from the weekend.

a taste of the chaos


WIIB love
 
I was super proud of my WIIB shirt.
 
the grill master himself- Jake's dad
beersbie is the offical game of the WIIB. playing brings pure joy to the boys



Sistas
Emma's happiest

the chair I lugged all the way home from Mexico was put to good use


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I guess I should mention, since this is a "healthy-ish, lifestyle-ish" blog, weekends like this last one and if I am being completely honest, the last few weekends, have left me feeling less than great (health wise).

Thank goodness my job keeps me so much more active than my previous job and I have been really nailing some great workouts each morning but NEWS FLASH!!! "abs are made in the kitchen", or so they say, & my bloated self has made some really poor desicions on pretty much everyday that ends in day lately.

My struggle, my constant struggle, is that I love my life and I want to enjoy it but I also want to feel and look my very best.

I wonder when I let myself relax if I am just making excuses...

andddddddd then on the flip side, when I buckle down I constantly ask myself is it really that worth it to say no to social situations or family time because I want to eat clean and get some extra miles in???

Some days the answer is clear and other days it isn't.

I know many of you struggle in the same way. It's just recently with being back in Illinois we have so much more going on. More opportunities to do fun things but they usually include all the booze and all the yumminess of summer and I just don't want to completely derail. I also don't want to be consumed with caring so much either. It's just alot of noise for me.

Sooooooo I think I need to proclaim some goals on here, just to get my head back on straight.

Starting today and for the next two weeks...

1. I will not drink a sip of soda (I only drink diet but it is usually so much easier for me to stay on track without it. I don't like to admit it but it is true. I feel better without the crap.)

2. I will not step on the scale (I hope to write a longer post on this soon. I know my body & it is really hard for me to not focus on a number, SO I am being strong and removing it as a habit for at least two weeks.)

3. I will not eat after 9 pm (This could be the hardest. I know when Jacob reads this he will laugh out loud, really hard. I don't really snack but I am known to make a midnight MEAL. Even though I usually take note of it, stopping at 9 will help me wake up feeling better & if nothing else, hungrier for my all time favorite meal. BREAKFAST!!)
 
 
Okay so I will check back in with y'all on these three goals July 22nd!

If you want to join me, shoot me an email! I would love to support eachother if these are habits you are looking to break :)

One habit I will not break is wine so stay tuned for the Sangria recipe I used this weekend!!! It was actually relatively healthy and a huge hit.

XOXO