Last night I hung out with my mom.
For as high maintenance as the two of us can be (she taught me her ways) we are pretty low key on a week night. It usually includes power shopping and taco bell drive thru at exactly 9:01 pm after the stores are closed.
I know I mentioned it before here about how my mom struggles with Multiple Sclerosis. I don’t really want this post to be about that, but more so how selfless she is and always has been.
The other night I poured all my worries and doubts and feelings out to her. It is a strange thing really because my problems are so stupid compared to what she deals with every day. However, never once has she compared her struggles to mine. She thinks my problems are real. She tries to sort them out with me and she makes me feel better by just listening. I know a lot of people have hard relationships with their parents, mine hasn't always been the best, but I guess I just feel really thankful this week that somehow I lucked out to have a mom that just listens. I know a lot of girls who would die for that.
Lately, I feel bad because my job takes away so much of the time we used to have together. We would have a girls day almost every week, like last night. My mom would spoil me rotten & we would get our nails done & eat lunch/dinner out, usually at the Cheesecake Factory. My dad would have a flipping heart attack every time the bills came in, but we still did it. Every week. Rain or shine.
**joys of living near home throughout college**
It just stinks that we don't get that time every. single. week. anymore.
I think a lot more about being a mom these days, which probably makes sense. We will be married two years this summer. It just isn't in the cards anytime soon & I am more than okay with that. I just know that when I do become a mom I want to find that selflessness that my mom has. The power to just forgo whatever I might be dealing with to comfort my kid.
A lot of you moms will probably tell me it is just something that happens when you have a little person & I am sure it is. I guess I am not really talking about the selflessness though when you have dirty diapers and a sick baby. I am talking about the selflessness that you still have when your babies are grown and you start seeing them as adults but you still understand that sometimes they just need their mom.
Anyways I didn't know it but I needed my mom this week. I am super thankful that I have her and since she is one of the three people who regularly read this blog, I wanted to make sure she knows how much I love her.
P.S. Call your mom today if you can : )
Happy Friday! Have a beautiful weekend.